Lately

lately i've been drifting in a sea of nothing, no words, no emotion, no thoughts (that i can hang on to)

lately i have become withdrawn, living inside my head , listening only to the sound of the blood rushing through my veins, or the occasional thought that rushes through and out before i can take hold of it

lately i dream of nothing, nothing with any meaning, nothing to inspire me when i awake from the nothing sleep

lately i don't even notice the birds, do they even come around anymore?

lately i have become quite forgetful, or maybe lately, there is nothing i need remember

lately i put on a mask, so no one sees the nothingness of me

at this moment i force myself to tune into my surroundings

i  hear the chimes tinkling as the wind blows in from the ocean

i see the sky, it is at the same time, blue,white, and gray, big puffy clouds floating by

i listen to the wind from a storm brewing just to the south and east

i feel an emptiness inside

and the dullness of a headache

lack of caffeine i suppose

so i sip my tea

and sit

and wait

for nothing


7/1/2014