January 7, 2017

Wow, a week has finally passed since I started this ridiculous attempt at posting something every day on my blog.  Why do I do this to myself ?

I've been sitting here thinking of something to write and all I can think about is the weather and I refuse to write about that again.  Good grief, I need to put some pizazz in my life !!!   I mean, it is sad when every time I open a page to write, all that comes to my mind is the weather.

So, let me go for now and I will come back and maybe there will be something in my head, anything, but not the weather. Gah !!

Be back later...

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Ok, I took some time, I stuck my head outside. It smells like winter out there. And that just makes me think of weather. And since I am not writing about weather again, I guess I have nothing to say.

So you see, I didn't make a resolution, so I have nothing to keep here.  I should probably give this up until such a time my brain wakes back up, and who knows when that might happen, or IF it will happen.  

I went back and read through some of my old writing , some old poetry and other things.  I don't even know who wrote that stuff.  Surely it wasn't me.  I think, back then, I had all these people inside my head and it was one of them.   But somewhere along the line, I must have killed off all those people inside my head and now there is nothing left but dead cells.

This is quite depressing.  Hey, maybe that is good. I write better when I am depressed (or in love) , but do I really want to go there again, to that dark place ?  Or for that matter, do I really want to go to that other place, being in love.    I can't afford to go to either of those places right now.

I think there is still something up there in my brain, my mind, but it looks like this and I can't turn that into words.